Am I Shallow?


Have you ever felt like you might come off shallow and superficial to others? I sometimes do, and it’s hard to talk about because I don’t want people to think that and miss the chance to get to know the real me. Where is this all coming from? Well, it comes from my goal of becoming a fashion editor. You see, when people ask me, “What do you do?” I feel conflicted. I’m hesitant to tell people I’m a fashion blogger because of two reasons.

The first reason has to do with image. For most people, when they think of fashion bloggers they think of “high end” bloggers like Wendy from Wendy’s Lookbook or the super stylish Blair from Atlantic Pacific. They’re always showcasing their outfits of the day and sharing their expensive new purchases. But I don’t have a lot of money, so I don’t tote around $5,000 Chanel bags or be poppin in completely new outfits everyday. I don’t even dress that “cute” some days. I’m totally casual – I love jeans and sneakers. So when I tell someone I’m a fashion blogger, it scares me to think that they’re looking me up and down and thinking, “What? You’re a fashion blogger?”

And secondly, there’s this stigma associated with fashion. Some see fashion as nothing more than just clothes worn to keep oneself covered. Some argue that spending time and money on fashion is a waste. That it’s all glitz and glam – totally vain and materialistic.

Yet, as I’m working towards becoming a fashion editor, I’ve learned that I need to own it. That’s right. I’m a fashion blogger. Say what now?

All jokes aside, in order to become a fashion editor, I’m learning to be confident and prove that I know my stuff. And besides, fashion is relative. Everybody has their own taste – what one person likes, another might not. Today I’ll say peplums and floppy hats are in, and tomorrow I might say hammer pants and velcro shoes are in. That’s what’s great about fashion because it’s a form of creativity and expression. You take what you like and you work it how you want.

The truth is we all judge with our eyes first. If we take that into consideration, is fashion truly wasted effort? If you look good on the outside, then you’ll feel good on the inside. As a result, it helps bring out your true inner beauty.

There’s always more than just what’s on the surface. So I say, do you – do it for yourself. Do what makes you happy and own it!